Chemical Reaction

Chemical Reaction Stonewalled blank expression choking on words Frozen not numb dumb unfounded Mind racing thought bouncing balance malfunction Widespread panic internal quakes Self-inflicted dopamine response spaced-out drowsy complete shutdown All systems shut down Outside-in: unfeeling uncaring cold-hearted bitch Inside-out: emotional overload caring too much Remember me remember this because in those moments I can’t…

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Three O’clock

Three O’clock Three o’clock the dog wants out or maybe I’m too late My sugar’s low or don’t I know kicked in Somogyi’s state The not quite dawn phenomenon already taking place It never ends I cannot win this glucose-insulin race Shadows run the cat thinks fun tearing corners in his wake Two hours left…

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Vacant Tapestry

Vacant Tapestry Reasons why I’m tied up inside locked inside walls without any halls Childhood stripped in disease’s grip Friends were not cheap unable to keep Never feeling enough as though I’d been struck in the face by a rock apart from the flock Broken up family unraveling tapestry Reality and dreams not what they…

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Routine Compulsion

Routine Compulsion Younger me ran and rebelled against the thought of anything routine Though my very existence depended upon it I hated the trap of mundane repetitive tasks Fighting for freedom in my mind flying and crashing into the dark abyss of failure countless times before I finally gave in made an effort to understand…

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